this is going to be the first time i actually press "publish post" on this blog. i use it usually to just track my thoughts, and the past few months, when i read back on those posts, my heart breaks all over again. so i've been avoiding this blog-spot. because i know if i read what i wrote it'll be like me picking at the scabs. so i won't.

anyway, blogger. according to my published site, i haven't written in about a year or so? maybe more. so in a nutshell, my life is completely opposite of what it was then. i'm happy and alone. whereas i was not so happy and not so alone. but that's the price you pay for matters of the heart. if the heart is filled, is that not happiness? anyway. so that's done. and it has been for the past two seasons of the year. going on 3 now. and with every season it hurts a little less, and i forget specific things. like the touch, the kiss, the flutter in my chest...or i try to. but that's the point, i try to.

it's almost finals. and i spent the last three months avoiding my responsibilities. saying yes to fun. and in the process saying yes to screw myself. notlooking forward to it. anyway, hit u up later blogger. later.