Sunday, September 20, 2009

Dramatics.

How about you try being cheated on? How about that? How about you try looking at someone and realizing you don't know them at all. That they lied to you... for how long? That they said the same things to someone else that you thought would only be meant for you. And you realize you were nothing special. If you were special, it would have been worked on. It would have been talked about, but no, instead, you were given up on and still kept around for the warmth and the default kisses. And you cry and you wonder, maybe I did something wrong. I picked too many fights. I wasn't enough, she was more attractive than I'll ever be. And yet you want to take the cheater back just to go back to normal and forget that anything ever happened, and in your mind and in your heart you keep running things on replay. Every day. All night. So you find other ways to hide it, you find other ways to forget it. But you can't. And every drink becomes a night of binge drinking, and you get sick of the taste in your mouth because it leaves you unsatisfied and disgusted at yourself for even GIVING your heart away. YOU trust. You trusted. You were taken advantage of. A good friend once told me, a good friend who is not the worst human being on earth, "If you hurt this much, it means you did your part, and the person was dumb enough to take advantage of that." And yeah, it hurts hella hard when you give it all you got and through all the arguments and the shit you were supposed to get through TOGETHER, you really went through alone, when that person already left to find someone else. ALL IN VAIN. WHEN SHIT GETS HARD, YOU DON'T FUCKIN CHEAT.

Everyone who has ever been cheated on is spitting on you right now. You be cheated on. I would love to see it, for you to finally be the one who is hurt and has the right to hurt. No one makes you cheat. Its not a reflex for miscommunication.

And the only reason people keep bringing it up is because you talk about it incessantly, and dramatize over every single thing like you're going to die from it. You're lucky that anyone has the courage to even try to set you straight. Instead of letting you continue thinking you were forced to cheat. That is the WEAKEST statement I know.

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