"but then i started to think. one morning i woke up thinking about it. why. why me. is it still happening? how do believe a liar? how can i know? i don't like taking risks. i don't want to take this risk because the last time i did, i was paralyzed for a while. it was impossible to do anything. but i can't afford that. but can i afford not having this in my life? can i afford losing the only person i ever loved? the only person i cared about so much? i invested five years in this. from friendship to love. to what? nothing? or to everthing. how do i protect my heart? i wonder. "