Coldest Winter

I realized something...or rather...I remembered something.

Somehow though...I forgot.

The first day of the year was spent working a very boring shift at Best Buy and playing games with my cousins. Something to take me outside of my mind, which is like a prison cell waiting for me. It's solitary confinement. There is really no reward for thinking. Anyway...I guess what I realized is that my cousins can always carry me out of the slumps. Even if they don't know I'm slumping they still do...one day I will thank them.

Today I learned I have a friend who I never really assumed to be a true friend, but who I realize is. It's suprising the ones who come to defend you when you are beating on yourself.

"You don't know what you got till it's gone." --too true.

Maybe I need to fix myself before I can move forward and be truly happy and satisfied. When telling some people that I wanted to change...to completely change...they told me I didn't have to. If only they knew. If only they knew what I have done.

There's no permanence in this world.

Added to the list of resolutions: no more energy drinks. and...win back my losses.

I said I didn't like this year...but someone that I respect and care for says that "it's only been a day" this is true.

That is why we will just wait and see.

Lesson of the day: Be thankful for what you have and don't ask for more than what you're given.

Love. Wish I had love.