Lovesick Melody

I WON'T SING ALONG!

hah. i can't sleep. this is ridiculous. for some reason i woke up at 3 o'clock and went to the bathroom. then i tossed around for a bit, but then i just gave up and watched some throwdown with bobby flay. then i watched some parental control. now it's fricken dawson's creek and andy mcphee is on. remember andy mcphee? anyone? ANYONE! no...just me? okay fine. well anyway, i'm pretty sure dawson is going to find out that joey is cheating on him with the gay guy at her sister's restaurant. dramatics!

well...i, personally, am an addict for dramatics. i kind of confuse the two for love.

taking back sunday.

i guess i can wait for the sun to come up before i sleep. i'm not even sleepy. which is strange because i was tired for the whole day.

and might i add that i never puked twice in one night before. fuckin...why?? maybe it was that juice we made at noemi's. maybe it was lack of real food in my stomach. i knew i shoulda ate more...

i feel bad. because my ma went to go visit my grandma today at her home in pacifica and she asked me if i wanted to come, but damn...i didn't want to be sad. i'd never put my parents in there no matter what happens to them or me, but why is it so hard for me to just see family in there and just extend the gift of company? selfish. this selfish youth. i can dish it out, but i can't take it. eh.

why am i awake!!!

what an interesting day today...

maybe i'm the only person who stops drinking after they turn 21. because honestly...i really only want to drink for company most of the time if i do want to...

jimmy eat world just started playing. on my itunes. i remember i used to not like jimmy eat world much. save for three songs. i think because i read somewhere they were mormon and i thought that was a little weird, but i'm listening to them and i like them. what a waste because i went to see them when they played with taking back sunday...and of course i went for tbs, but missed them. WASTE.

i can't believe i used to watch fricken dawson's creek. hah.

well i guess i'll just go surfin. then put my eyes to sleep. goodnight, goodmorning.

you always say goodnight, goodnight.

juliana theory.