Lucky Man

So I was bored and asked people how 2006 was for them. Got positive feedback, some negative. Nar says that all change is good, no matter what anyone says. I guess he has a point in that. also that change is not the same as covering up. Change is change, and forgetting is different.

I don't know for me, yeah I tried to change a lot. I tried to change my thinking, I tried to make myself separate. I didn't want to depend on others to pick me up anymore, and sometimes I think I've succeeded. Because at the end of the day, when you close your eyes to go to sleep, it's only you. It's only you who has the power to choose your dreams. And for me...I guess it wasn't that bad...it's just the shit that happened around me I couldn't shake myself loose from. Can't stand to watch others cry. Everything has to be right, or else it's all just wrong...


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In light of tonight, in light of these last nights, in light of these conversations...

It is crazy the way life changes.

tonight I came home (it's 11:53pm btw, this is an edit) from a night with the high school buds, and my sister goes, "Hey remember Richard Le?" Nah, I didn't remember. "Remember he was cousins with your friend Mai, and his sister was Meggie?" Yeah, I remembered. Me and Mai were best friends and sometimes we'd let Meggie hang around, they were hella close. And I only tolerated Richard because he was Mai's cousin, but everyone found him annoying. Anyway, eventually in life, Mai and I lost touch...and I don't even know her anymore. But fuck, I just found out that some crazy shit went down and Meggie's gone. Can you believe that? Dude, LIFE HAPPENS. It's fuckin making me go crazy right now...seriously in a state of shock. Trippin me out...dude, LIFE HAPPENS. And it leaves. Some fucked up shit. It's crazy when people you fuckin used to know become names in articles. They become people you read about, not things you hear about...they just become names!

Man if we were still friends...I feel bad that we ever stopped being friends. That shit was my fault. I listened to everyone, but Mai was always a good fuckin friend. And I remember how close they were...that shit breaks my heart.

Damn, I'mma pour one out for you. For playground politics. For best friends. For time.

Everyone changes for a reason, someone told me. I'm lookin back. How much we all changed. We gained friends, we lost them. We changed.

2006, you got some hits still don't you? Packing them punches, hitting it hard. Keep em' coming. You wanna come with it? Come kill me too? We lived it right.

Man, be safe ya'll. Cop checkpoints all over, even in your neighborhood. Don't drink and drive. Get through the last days of this year and next year we'll start fresh. Change comes constant. It's the only thing. Think about it, we're lucky we even suffered.

Peace. and love love love.