I will understand

There are some things that trigger Winter for me. Maybe it's the light in my room. The dimness. The days that turn to nights. The cold days. The way the headlights look. The way time seems condensed and hurried. The way I don't feel like moving. The days I feel like drinking to stay warm. The way I start to feel down. The way I start to dread the coming weather and staying inside and layering clothes and the idea of waking up in an ice box.

I hate Winter. I'll never like Winter. I've always wanted to fast forward these next five months because I hate them the most. Skip right to the end of April when the sun starts to come out again. Then May...then June.

so I'm obsessed with time. Who cares.