Get myself arrested.

Savior of the night: Art School Confidential.

Damn you gotta watch it.

When I slept I think I had a dream that started in my bed. Then I woke up. Well anyway...so we were goin on a trip, like...for some reason kim, nicole, kappas. I don't know why I dreamt about ya'll. But we went on a bus to get to the airport or whatever, and we went with Ate Allyson's class. We stopped at this town, where they got off to use the restroom. But they fricken took forever and then needed to do a scavenger hunt. So weird. Well then we were on our way. Got to this seedy motel. Or hotel? But it was trashy. I think it looked like someone had drank all over the place. But then I woke up because someone texted me.

Dream 2. Suddenly my company became my family. My boy cousins, my sister, and my uncle. We were in this motel with all these folks. But it was haunted. And for some reason, they were haunting me. I got stuck behind all these folks and I missed my family as they went up to our floor. FLOOR 3. But I was freaking out when I went into the elevator with only one man and tried to get to floor 3. But I got off and it was a completely wrong floor. I started freaking out as the lights started flickering, so I decided that maybe I should take the stairs, but I couldn't remember if I had already tried that. And I was scared to be stuck in the stairwell alone. So I went back in the elevator and frantically stared at the floor map. Turns out they counted the floor level as well, and for some reason...Floor 5 was really Floor 3. So I pressed the button and braced myself. Luckily my family was all there. So our haunted room looked like my room. Maybe it was. We exchanged our scary stories there about the house. I made up the bed for all of us. I was sleepin on the floor with my other cousins. But then they all left the room to get water. And the door was open. And I was terrified thinking, I'd see some fairweather dead friend walk by. And I had this memory I swore that one night when I was sleeping someone touched my hand. (in the dream, not in real life). But yeah. So that's all I remember before I realized I should probably wake up.

11. got a few before I gotta get ready for school. Before I fail my fricken quiz.

This is what I did. I de-briefed myself on do's and don'ts. I told myself vital information. I sat there yelling them in my head. Starting my sentences with "VANESSA..." So. I've done that before. It's tricking yourself. It's training yourself. So that's what I'm doin.

I dont need nobody to know me, I don't need nobody to know, I don't see nobody to show me.

sorry about my insanity last night. Comes at night. Sometimes during the day. But I never do what I tell you I'mma do. That's a fact. Unfortunately. As bad as I want it to not be. I can never do it.

Here's to Thursday. Then Friday with work. Then Saturday with high hopes and a release form.