Hang on.

All I want and need is sleep. That's all I really did this week. I didn't really go out, I stayed in. And this is my last week of freedom, so I guess I spent it being lazy, which I need to change anyways. Sigh. Monday. On Monday. Right after class at SF, I'll have to jet to De Anza then find parking and find my classroom. Ya think? Think I can do it? Then be there until 5 learning something completely foreign to me, Physics. I'm shitting my pants...I'm so scared to fail. Because then...what does it mean? What's it worth? Gotta do this for myself...

Lately I've been trying to turn into stone. Ya feel me? Because I do not want to feel anymore.

This relationship with Al, I dunno. We should take a break. Make some rules. How bout...no drinking during the week. And my weekend begins on Thursday anyways. No drinking alone. No drinking to drown feelings. Drinking for fun only. Sounds good to me.

Well, the new season of Grey's Anatomy is starting in ten minutes. Got my Snickers bar and water bottle ready hah. (Menstrual snacks).

And to Katherine, good luck in college. But it certainly isn't all luck. It's mostly self-discipline and the ability to just deal. It's fun! It's what you make of it. Be happy.

Ya hear that everyone? Be happy. Spank you. Love you. Bye.