"Drunk"

How did time go from being SO BORING to being SO EXHAUSTING? Seriously, like a week ago, I was so bored out of my head, hating the world, hating people who fuckin kill me, hating the summer that let me down. Now, it's like I can't find time to rest. And everytime I try, it's too fuckin hot, there's always a distraction, and I find myself in this constant lethargy.

It helps that I'm far away. Because when I go up to the city, I find I miss them so much there's no time to be sad...well for the most part. And it's cool because I get to spend time over here and hang with the sisters over here.

Noemi says "IT" happened. The way I defined "it" was that life without the city is still life, and I don't care what I miss or who I miss, because I've got a life back here now. What was it you said? We have to make our own moments. Even if the moments are spent being bored or eating because we always do that...damn they're moments. And they help me forget about the things I'm trying to forget.

So emo. I think I was going to drive around for a while, but ever since I got pulled over, I tried to avoid speeding and unnecessary driving altogether.

Guess I'm not so thirsty as I thought. To drink for the sake of. It doesn't taste the same.

Happy September. I have to fill in my damn calendar now.

What if I resent you now, what if I can't trust in anything you say? Try to say you can't, yes I can.

It's been an interesting first week of school. Man, I'mma try to keep sane....it's going to be fucking hard. But if it gets too hard, I know where to go...and I've been thinking about that ever since all this started.

I speak in code. Try to understand.