I never said i'd take this lying down.

So I was checking my horoscope, because some days, I really think it's gonna come true, hah! And I was remembering how on Tuesday we were talking about psychics and that kinda shit. And then I was remembering Tuesday.

Okay.
1) Twas fun! Remembered how it used to be when we were bored and random. I wish maybe I could've spent more time in the city. It's just a different kind of living, eh? Right? Like sitting together at a table, chillin, talkin bout random things, but things that mean a lot. Or just things. Just catching up, and it never even felt like time passed between all of us.
2) And it hit me once we started talking bout remember whens that time changed a lot of shit, that we changed a lot in that time. Oh, how we became what we are. Oh, how I believe the things I believe. And oh, how we are determined to get things straight. But yes, those were different times.
3) and I guess I like the times we're in. And I missed all that, and I'm gonna miss it. I miss just talking about shit, just sitting around and taking shots. Here's to you, ruined my life. Here's to You, God. Here's to you...what was it Joanna said? Better things from this day forth? Something like that. Something hopeful and not bitter.

Tuesday was a good day. Even moving was fun. Haha, even though I was in lazy agony. Did a lot of funny shit that day. Random. And I needed that. That they're far but never too far to call if I'm fucking up here.

I guess, I just love the people I'm friends with. For understanding, for listening. Even when I forget that they're there. Almost time to go to school.

I need to fix everything. Last year was about repair but it didn't work. So how about this is a second chance. FIX FIX FIX. Must be done. Gotta catch up. Gotta not let anyone down. Most importantly, gotta not let myself down. And I gotta keep myself up with my missions. I have to remember them. This is the last post like this. Promises to be kept this time. Because I found out I don't need your eyes to read these. I don't need you to know anything. And I don't want you to.

And I just wanted to say thanks. Thanks thanks thanks. Just don't let me forget you're there. Because sometimes it's so easy to cast shadows. And I get lost in them. Tap me on the shoulder when I start going crazy. I left a note in my brain, it says, stop. I hope they get the memo.

Peace out, homies.