August.

I just wish we could go back to some sort of old days. Easier. Fun. Where these fucking swings didn't come so often...Summer was just summer. I guess because I'm staying home now I see this as the last hoorah. But there's not much of hoorah-ing.

Man there's a lot of shit I want to say. But I'm sick of runnin talk, typing it out.

We fix. Let's fix.

I guess August is the month though. Got love. Been a cool couple days. Very interesting. Eventful. Good and bad ways. But I got love.

Hey...two years ago, I was embarking on college. Catching up with people. Getting my first hangover with Hennessy, my stomach's forever fondest enemy. Crazy that I've been seeing folks in the last week that I haven't seen since high school. Crazy shit. Kinda makes me sad like fuck. Kinda makes me happy. At least I don't drink cheap vodka. That's all I gotta say. I know my good shit. Thank you very much.

So:
--Thanks Dcruz for taking us out of this goddamn city for a weekend, and watching my ass in Rosarito. This is overdue. I fucking love you, man. Know it's been weird this last week, but you gotta understand, I'm cringing for you. And I don't know what you've been doing or how you've been, but let's not take this summer out the same way we've been doing it, because damn, it's been kinda fucked up. So lemme say goodbye to you, you who are going to be the one going to the city now, lemme say goodbye the right way.

--Noemster, gracias for keeping me company, hearing me vent, eating with me, taking care of my drunkass in Rosarito, keeping me in check, trying along with me to save this summer. And letting me crash your meetings because I'm lonely. Yay bud, you and me in San Jo, how cool. SAN JO, YOU KNOW!!!

--Speaking of San Jo! San Jo sisters!!!! Kim, Monica, Carrie, Kristee, Ann, DiAnne, Richelle, Kathleen, Marilou, Noemster. Just this last week, being exposed to your efforts and passion is inspiring enough to remind me the shit that drives Kappa. The shit that has driven Kappa. And what is Kappa, you know? What is that shit we fell for two fucking years ago?? I see it in ya'll. The ladies I joined for, to be like, to learn from. I'm proud of you, and I'm behind you all the way. Ya'll are poetry. Ya'll are action. Ya'll have heart. For real, though. LOVE YOUUUUUU LADIES.

--yo moma sed (11:36:20 PM): just write about how much u miss me. NICOLE! I love you, dude. Because you always listen, and you always wanna be there, and you always wanna make sure that everything's cool. I hella miss you dude, and our randomass adventures, our random drinking afternoons, our random indecision. We're fucking awesome. To the moon!! To the moon, Franny!!! I shall miss bugging you at night.

--This is for my family for having to deal with me. I know I've been some sort of super bitch since mom and pops came home, I've been stressing out over shit. School, work, trying to find some fun. And I just take it out on the people in closest distance to me. That's ya'll. So sorry, Christine. I know most of the time you deserve a better big sister, one who's around more often, or doesn't snap so much. I hate the way I act, but sometimes I can't help it. I just get so angry at the way life is and how I can't change it. And I feel like I need to bust out of here like 24/7. You were right, I shouldn't have moved back. But I'm here, and I'm trying to get straight with my shit.

--To Ana, HEY GIRL. Haha...I don't know if you read this shit. But hey. Thanks for always inviting me out, but being let down by me but still inviting me out when you do. You're funny. The cotillion was cool even though I'm hella awkward like Princess hahaha. And yeah, let's do something. I'm hella down, I swear. You call the next shit. For real. I like how we both wanna get out of here...I'll see you on the other side, prima. Thank you for listening to me vent that one time I was going hella crazy. I was drunk. Love you. To Bryan, you're awesome dude. Sorry I never came out on AlphaQ day, the day I hella bugged ya'll about. Thanks for not hating me, because I would definitely hate me. Thanks for offering me ways out of my boredom. We needa have AlphaQ day for real.

--Nar, Tyrone--old buds. Thanks for listening. Nar, thanks for letting me call you drunk haha and letting me explain shit and for being bored on AIM. The English Patient is a cool movie. For telling me what a pork loin is? Haha, you're hella funny. TYRONE!!! I owe you a million bucks, a million anything. A million babysitting nights. Thanks for taking care of us, sorry so last minute. You never fail me, bud. As few and far between when I see you and need something, you're there. So thanks. Just to let you know, but I don't know if you read this shit either, you're the smartest dude I know, and I know you're gonna make something big of yourself as a doctor. You're a good person.

--BVILLA!! Lovely spending time with ya'll. It's always fun. I'm sorry I never come out anymore. I'm always working or putting Kappa first or some shit, but I miss ya'll. Ya'll crack me up everytime. I miss talking TV with you, Maureen, I just don't watch TV anymore, that's the problem. Haha.

--Old buds--Mary D., Loan, Fred, Khai. We're so academically gifted. haha, jk. AP CHEM, WHAT UP!!! Whenever I tell my mom I'm going to see one of you, I say they're the ones who came on my 17th birthday and they're tall Vietnamese girls haha. Then she knows. And Khai I don't really know how she knows you, maybe because ya'll hella came over my house forever to work on that Art History presentation. Remember? You don't read this either. Whatever. But, yeah, I miss ya'll. Funny because we're all the same. I feel like I'm the slacker though, compared to ya'll. Working hella hard in college, when I haven't even started. Teach me a thing or two. I need it.

Longest list ever. Alright. All of this shit off my chest. My gratitude. My mess. Thanks for everything, everyone. I was desperate for ears and arms, and thank you lending me yours. But the battle has only just begun. Peace out, homies. Tomorrow is Monday. Starts another week kinda. So busy...

Two birthdays!!! Two people who are awesome.