And when we're lost its amazing to find our way back to life

i keep forgetting that i'm in this for the whole way. that i'm not going to create my own end. i keep forgetting that. i'm no good when my brain starts to go down to its bad place, because then i completely break down. and it happens over and over. my to-do list consists of breaking that cycle. and my to-do list always has this bullet point that says to become a better person. i don't know what that means anymore. i'm not sure. but i will always try.

Week 2. Give me a reason.

I had a dream. It had my own blood in it. My dad drinking a mug of rum. It had us, and we were going to a party or something. And I was driving the van drunk, and then all of a sudden the breaks stopped working. Wonder what it means. But we got home safe.

Life is one big game.