What's the Story.

I have been sitting in the dark for hours. I went outside twice. Once during the day, and once at night. I tripped the alarm and Bay Alarm called the house.

"This is Bay Alarm, is everything alright."
"Yeah, it just took me a while to turn off the alarm."
"Who's this?"
"Vanessa?"
"Ok, do you know the password?"
"What? There's a password?"
"..."
"Yeah..uhm...lemme ask my dad."

Gah. So dumb.

Thank you for listening to my fuckin mindless rants. Just to let you know now, in case I forget forever.

So...figuring out what to do tomorrow. I know I should do these things before break ends:
--Hang out with my cousin(s). Make sure they're all set up for when I leave so that they don't call me out the fuck of nowhere asking me for help...Also just to hang...because...I miss their fuckin randomness.
--I think my sister and I need to watch Lost. Plus because she wants to and I always wanted to and David is saying these really cryptic things about it and I wanna know what they mean. hah.
--Laundry.
--Drown myself. And think of other ways to die.
--Just kidding.
--Go to church. Just to go. Mass or not. I wish my aunt would ask me...but what's the point in wishing. I know...I'll just go...I'm sure as soon as I get in there...I'll probably die from the tears caught in my eyes. Oh well.

Someday you will find me caught beneath the landslide in a champagne supernova in the sky...

So many good songs. Such good lyrics. Its funny how things just come and go. And then there's that time after where it's like...what the hell is going on...what did I miss...It comes a lot. That period of time.

K, all I know is...I'm not sure how I'm feelin right now. Pretty alright. A little bit on the "uh oh" side, but that's normal. A little regretful. A lot regretful. But we're all full of those, like it or not. Like it or not. I wonder...wonder what's going to happen now. Why do things feel different...Not this again.

I feel homesickness coming. I feel something creeping over my shoulder. But whatever. It's okay. Fuck it. It's okay.

My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I heard you say

I lied. It's a pretty good album. So tell me...What's the Story...Morning Glory?