RANDOM

I took a two hour nap early and woke up around 9, so I won't be sleeping for a little bit...so...
RANDOM:
--Everyone says that Death Cab For Cutie's Transatlanticism is their best album, but I'm listening to it right now and I'm trying to form an opinion...so far...just makin me kind of sad.
--You can't choose family. You know like the saying. So we should stop trippin' about who our family consists of...because we can't do anything to change it...it's unconditional love, ya know...blood is blood, blood is thicker than water...than a lot of things, than most things in fact, but...we can't forgive and forget, and I'm scared for the fact that we all have to learn that lesson...
--How the hell am I expecting to go home this weekend? But then again I left my laundry there...
--It's cold here.
--Not right now.
--Emma is a good cook. Nar you better watch your ass. Or else cook me somethin.
--I'm done with my two busiest days...haha...Monday was just busy because of the errands I had to run, and today was just all class and no fun, though I think film class is cool. Except our teacher is Dawson Leary.
--What's happening now?
--So quiet...so awkward...lately things haven't been coming out the way I've been meaning them to. But whatever, I guess.
--Jess is in my first class of the day TTH!!!
--This semester is all surprises...
--I keep yawning...but I just woke up, I dunno what's wrong with me.
<----That's my ass. I uploaded all of my old files to my laptop. So now I'm all caught up.
--So like...does my ass look big in those jeans?
--And...does my ass look PHAT in those jeans?
--Ok...just wondering.
--No, you didn't have to answer.
--No...don't leave me a comment.
--Haha...jk.






--well anyway...Transatlanticism reminds me of FYE because we played the Shopgirl trailer that had the song "Sound of Settling" in it. And Donald's fantasy is for people to just fall in love to that song in our store. Yeahhhh, weird dude. But pretty funny.
--Headphones on, watching Cheaters, that show is dumb. Freaked me out.
--I guess this is the end of my random thoughts.
--I had a weird dream during my nap but I can't remember what it was about, all I remember is that it was weird.
--Comin up here, I had some new outlook, but slowly I'm remembering everything that I left here...and it's not bad, it's not good, but it's just happening. It's just part of the past now...it's weird because I thought things would pick up where they left off...but it seems we're all set to change. Like I was saying to Emma...I think this year is hopeful...just because the end of last year was so hopeless for a lot of us...
--I love. With everything that is happening at home...with everything that is happening here...with everything that has happened, for the break we just had, for the times and the memories and the bonds...for everything...for the hardship and the struggle, the tears and the cuts to the heart, bleeding hearts and other things...there's a reason for everything. I believe in signs. I believe in everything working out for everyone...and if it doesn't, we can make it happen. We can always make things happen. Frowns, upside down, inside and out...for it all. I simply just love everything even when I hate everything. And maybe that's what makes me hate it so much. This year...maybe it's an up. Maybe it's just right now. But you can't have good without bad, right? And so on...because man...I fuckin remember the good times...and even the bad times...man they were good...but damn. The bad times...they killed me...almost killed us all...wiped out our spirits...but we got what we needed with the break. So there's that. I said it today...I said it. Even if you hate life...do you really wish you were dead? The answer is no...a loud, resilient no. And I know, for once...it's not just me.

Tomorrow...another day. One class!!! And then I guess reading the rest of the day, don't I love what my life is...Sometimes...but yeah.