i don't think i'll be coming back here again she's got plans and i don't think i fit innnnnnnnnnn

BRANDTSON. How old school. So emoo. That's life.

Like for example. Why do my co-workers talk about depressing subjects constantly? Like today we were joking about ways to commit suicide. Of course, reluctantly...and kind of freaked out, I participated in the conversation. Freaking A.

But anyways. I like working with the guys because I can pretty much do whatever. As long as I look approachable I guess. Today I worked my whole shift trying to alphabetize Latin, but I only got up to the N's. Four hours of...BANDA. AND CUISILLOS. I'm tired of CDs. And I asked if I could get my lip ring, and they said I'd have to get it pierced with a retainer. BUT WHO DOES THAT. Hah. And I asked my mom, and she kept saying a succinct "No." and I kept saying "YES." But she probably doesn't take me seriously. Oh, but she should...she should.

Today was beautiful. Kind of wish I could just...I don't know. Sleep though. Hah. Waste of a day with the sun shining in my face. i take days like these foregranted. Like I have all the time in the world. But who really knows...

I feel like a schmuck. Or whatever. I don't know why. Just feel like that's a good word for me right now.

Another long entry. Would ya look at that. BLOGGER, ARE WE FRIENDS?! Yes. Always and forever.

Should I sleep now...or later...What's on TV??? I never know. I'm so unhip.

Do you know how much sex is in Doctor Zhivago? A lot. Kind of freaks me out. Maybe tomorrow since I have the day off I should go get The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter and start reading on friday. Or I could just do it on Friday. Hah. Yeah. Friday. I like you. Friday morning spent alone. Sounds lovely to me. For some reason...I really like being alone. Wouldn't really mind if I were alone right now. As long as I had a few things. Feeling refreshed. Maybe this is what I needed...just had to get away from the city and the craziness, the constant depression and failure...just come here where I'm needed and wanted. Like I said...this break is whizzing by.