mix for dreaming.

"Sleep Cures All"
1. MYMP- Crazy For You
2. Elliott Smith- Waltz #2
3. Sunny Day Real Estate- Every Shining Time You Arrive
4. Straylight Run- Existentialism On Prom Night
5. Stereophonics- I Miss You Now
6. Radiohead- Fake Plastic Trees
7. Maroon 5- She Will Be Loved (hah, I wake up to that every morning, thought it would be annoying if I included it)
8. Joseph Arther- In the Sun
9. Ivy- Edge of the Ocean
10. Further Seems Forever- On Legendary
11. Elliott Smith- Let's Get Lost
12. Elliott Smith- Say Yes
13. Aqualung- Strange and Beautiful

When in the car with Noemi, we were listening to my XMAS mix '03 (two years ago! wow!) and I should keep a record of what I put on there...because it was a good ass mix. So here's my record of my sleep playlist.

So at work today, when I was vacuuming, I kept getting little electrical shocks from the vacuum. I think that's dangerous. Could just be me being "concerned" or whatever...God forbid. Also, it seems I am very behind on this whole "love" business. Because my geeky co-workers are like ENGAGED. Can you friggin' believe it? Sometimes I feel like I'm not living...oh, and I just found out that one of my friends from high school is a recent NEWLYWED. What is going on with the world....someone slap me, because this is like a bad dream. Anyway...my life feels very small of a sudden. Let me shrink into it. Call me when it's time to grow up.

And I'm sleeping in the apartment, but I realized I forgot all of my toiletries at home. SHUCKS.

Tomorrow hanging out with some high school homies. Wow. I don't know what we'll do. Maybe we can ice skate. That sounds like fun. But I'm sure we'll just watch Rent. Hah. Predictable. AH.

So...I realize, as I've come to realize time and again, not to expect so much of people. Can't build them up to stand on a pedestal. They're not golden, they're not special. They break my heart like every other person. Yeah, tear my heart to pieces. But it's okay, it's really my fault. I'll just try to be real with myself, but then when I try to be real, I get really jaded and then I think I should put hope in people, but then when I do that, this is what ends up happens. So continues the endless cycle of like and love. Or real and fake. Or happy and sad. Whatever the cycle is. But yeah...as much as I'd like to believe, people are not capable of reading my thoughts, and therefore cannot be all that I want them to be. Because that's just stupid. Plus, I'm being way stupid.

Stupid work tomorrow at 11-5. Then I'll go home and nap.

currently play song 3 on my playlist. Every shining time you arrive...but you don't shine anymore.

FUCK YO COUCH!