hard heart

I remember crying for hours in my dream.

Lately I've been feeling really assy. Taking out my aggression/anger/frustration with things out on people and myself, I just wish I could get out of this spot I feel stuck in.

I don't know what to do with myself. So bored right now, have nothing to do, everyone is at school and I'm waiting for Jenny here. Did my quiz. Don't want to do my homework. I guess the logical thing would be to watch TV...

Maybe I should call my mom...

Oh mom...I think you surprised me with that King Eggroll you snuck in that bag.

And I still wish I could save the people I love from that which hurts them, or shit that we can't control. Somehow I believe if I were present, shit would be less hurtful, ya know? But that's just my self-absorbed way of looking at shit, my self-absorbed way of thinking I could save everyone.

What do we do with our lives?