i watched a change...

Been a while, huh?

Life is... I dunno. Bad? Good? Sometimes good until I realize how I've been then it starts going really bad in my head. Got pain in my hand to remind me, and awkward silence filled by tension and unspoken hostility.

I figure if I have to change anything in my life, it's this defensive attitude. Maybe I live in my head more than in my life, and living in my head is my own bitter destruction, as well as destructions as other things.

Nicole and Rosanne are singing to me right now, they are so weird. They're fucking weird. But I love them...keepin me here, man, with Emma too...this apartment...oh man. My home away from home. They're so crazy.

What's new? Buncha stuff. Workin with some crazy fucks at FYE, hah. WITH NICOLE AS MY COWORKER, SAY WHAAAAA. I think it's cool, so far, can't wait to get out of the damn Latina section. SO OUT OF ORDER. Yeah....

They're just sitting on the floor, singing. What the hell. But I guess.

Okay, I'm done, until next time, I have hella shit to do. Gotta do this, bye.