Fix you

Just a lil warning: You know what I rant about. You know the recurring themes of my entries. So if you don't want to read, I understand. In fact, don't.

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

When high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
-Coldplay. Fix You.

You don't read this. I know for a fact. Because if I were you, I wouldn't read this anymore, either. Despite the shouts, your name in the previous entries, like you were in my life. Oh wait, you were, but not anymore. Just a name. Someone I used to know. Even when I'm up, I'm down when I realize that I'm up here alone. An observer, and not a participant, especially in your life. Because something happened, and I don't know you anymore. Maybe it was the time or the distance. But I remember being on the phone with you in my dorm room, talkin about how we're gonna party when we can, how we're gonna go take trains to be friends again. But that never happened. And even in the same city now, I still don't know you. Maybe I overstood everything that happened. Thinkin shit like, you're gonna be in my life. I will be in yours. We will be ninangs to our kids. Hey, I'm going to your wedding. And even if I'll still be at your wedding...just another invitation or something, damn...I thought it would be more than this. Thing is, we always say we're gonna call each other. I called you...you didn't pick up. It's okay though. But I just want to let you know that even when I'm up, I'm still down. Because I just end up thinkin, what if everything turns out to be like this. Thinkin I will know you forever, when forever stops here. What if that happened to every relationship I ever have...I'm not goin on so much here. But I like to keep the little I got. I'm just sad that of all people, you were one of my best friends, and you aren't here anymore...not within my sight. And all that we went through, we still went through, yeah it can't be touched, those times...those laughs...those adventures...the days are done, though.

Coming to terms with those days are done.

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

I am terrified at the thought that everyone in my life will drift away like that. And I'll let them. As I have let you.

We breathe. We let people down. We let ourselves down. We're up. We're down.

Message to everyone: If you like what you have, keep it. Why would you let anything stop you from keeping the shit you consider golden.

That's all I got. "We." "I." Bout time I wrote bout someone else...

i been readin back and back...and i move forth