Will I wait on my knees

Will it ever be time enough
or are we just too naive?
I haven't just given up
Oh, God I still believe
Is patience still waiting?
Will I wait on my knees?
The Juliana Theory. Is Patience Still Waiting.

I've been blogging a lot lately. Like three times a day, shit like that. I made a fat mess in my room because I was looking for my AP scores, and I couldn't find anything. But I did find a lot of stuff I forgot about. Like in my Kappa bin...a sign that says "Will You Marry Me?" Remember that Etas? Kim and Dcruz's letter they left in my backpack. My snapple bottle. Peach Iced Tea. Letters. A letter I wrote...that one time...I read and I felt a spark. I'm waiting for the fire again. Birthday cards. From mom. From aunt. Essays.

don't throw out your one good chance, we'll only have this time.

I'm too lazy to pack for the move. I look around and I don't see anything really leaving, and if anything were to leave, it would be all of it, but Lord knows we don't have that kind of room.

Wait they don't love you like I love you...maps...wait...they don't love you like I love you.

I'm just listening to music. Waiting for Noemi to call. Yeah...so like...I don't know...I hate the word nostalgic because I feel it so often. But of course, we all long for days past. It's a secret disease. But I've always been one to kind of focus on the future. Maybe one day...shit like that. Occassional pangs of nostalgia. Pangs of regret here and there. But most of the time, just missin the days.

Got a haircut today. it's ridiculously short. But i just laughed. Whatever.

Here in this diary, i write you visions of my summer...

Can't believe it's almost over! You know what though...road trip. Hah. FUCKIN LOVE IT. Gotta buy some NRG, because Nicole and I are gonna totally battle. Haha....once again...those days.

golden. golden. golden. golden. golden. golden. golden. golden. golden. golden. golden. golden.