a dashboard confessional

My dashboard confessional stands in the thoughts I have driving alone. Leaving the dark behind me, but it's still dark inside me. My dashboard confessional does not have to be sung, because if it were to be, it would be the dumbest song you've ever listened to.

My dashboard confessional.

I am a self-loathing human being. I wish I could save you from me. My negative qualities, my pessimism, my hate for myself, which somehow reflects upon some of the things I do. Somehow? What am I talking about, it does, because I'm so persistent upon expressing my frustration, don't care who sees, don't care at all.

So why am I gonna trip all over myself over little things, when I would fuckin kill myself if I don't get it right? Somethin in me is a perfectionist...dying over reality and mistakes. Well, my biggest mistakes are always feeling so angry in the heat of the moment. Man, I could make all the promises in the world to not anymore, just not...but I know I will. I know myself too well to know everything that will happen in the next five minutes, or the next five years. There are really no surprises in my life.

Biting my tongue.

My dashboard confessional. I'm not my friend. I'm not my ally. I'm not the person I want to be.

Why do you even bother with me. Give up.