don't know how to sleep early.

What! Spring Break over?! Back in San Francisco?!!!

NOOOOOOO

YESSSSSS....

UGH.

Back to responsibility. Must bring grades up. Must get pledge stuff done. Must find formal dress. Must study study study. Must find meaning. UGHHHHHHHHH!

Everything, anything, whatever is coming up. April has always been my least favorite month. That and March. What do we need those for...FEBRUARY straight to MAY is fine to me. Then JUNE and my birthday...gotta love it.

EASTER was fun. Hung out with the family, can't remember what we did. Watch old videos, look at old pictures....hella cute. I hid the eggs from those nasty kids. They're savage! Runnin around all over the damn place...clawing each other, beating each other down...it got so ugly! Okay, no it didn't. But it could have....no, maybe not. But anyways...it was pretty cool. I took lots of pictures of like nothing. Hahaha. Whatever man. But it's always fun hanging with the cousins. Watching the little cousins act like we used to...thinking about how things were, and the feelings attached to certain days of the year, and how they are different now...man. I miss the days. Everyone does...but I am tired of living now. I want to rest in the safety of the past...where I know people will just direct me and protect me. I hate making mistakes, and doing all this shit I'm doing...some days I won't stand for it anymore, and so I fall. Hard on my knees. On my face. Whatever. Point is, I fall.

But I always get up again. Yup.