she said "have faith"

I've noticed that my life is so unbalanced. You may know me, but do I know you? It seems more Kappa than school. More fun than serious. More Etas than anyone else.

She said "You have to have faith in them." And it's way harder to have faith. That just doesn't click in your head like "Oh okay." And bam...you trust them. Although, it would be easier to have it that way, it isn't like that. It's more like "Fuck, now I have to do this." And so you struggle and maybe you succeed, maybe you fail...either way...you will have come a long way.

Somehow, everything changed. Sometime, I can't figure out the exact moment.

edit:

Just got out of class...maybe I've been spending too much time around girls all the time...like, it's been all women in my life all time...man. That just gets me. It freaks me out. Because right now I just talked to a guy, and it's not a guy that I like or anything, but damn, it just made me feel better. There is too much estrogen in my life. I should mix it up. Because seriously, with all them girls, I just feel so tensed.