i wont be a crybaby anymore.

So, I decided...I don't care anymore. You know what I'm talking about. There's no reason I should put myself through this anymore, so why should I? That glutton for pain bullshit? How about no. And that doesn't mean I can't feel the way it used to before any of this crap started to stir, so it'll be like it never happened. Because there are more important things...and everything is all so trivial other than that. You probably don't follow. But I do...and that's what matters. So no more. No more, no more, no more. I can't make myself stop, so it'll just be a slow process...somewhat of a agonizing one, but that's okay. It needs to be over. So I'm over it. I'm over it.

Read and believe it. And if I start up with all that bullshit again, you can just...punch me really hard. Because no physical pain is worth the shit I have to wake up with, stays with me through the day, and keeps me from sleeping at night.

I'm over it. Nothing in life is fair, I have discovered.

And no one is more jaded than I am at this moment. goodnight.