a few words. not inspirational.

In a romantic fashion
I will experiment with my fear right before her eyes
And every smile that's unveiled will be soaked
In my nervous charm
Then I'll say "Is everything alright?
There's been a few things I've been meaning
To let go of tonight"
And she will say "Everything's just fine
So you can put an end to your worrying mind"
And then our lips will collide

The August sky will then bare witness
To a brand new chapter with torn up pages
When the planets align, I can feel the gates opening
To my courage
As I proceed to run my fingers through her hair
And forget everyone who's jaded, 'cause they don't matter
And I don't care In a confident fashion
I will admit my deepest and darkest to her
And every gaze across the table
Will send my unsuspecting body into shock
Then I'll say "Would you like to go inside?
And forget the world and the rules
By which we are to abide"
And she will say "There's nothing I want more"
As we step into the room, turn off the lights and close the door

The August sky will then bare witness
To a brand new chapter with torn up pages
When the planets align, I can feel the gates opening
To my courage
As I proceed to run my fingers through her hair
And forget everyone who's jaded, 'cause they don't matter
And I don't care
No, 'cause they don't matter
And I don't care

Brash and hopeful
That my luck will not perish tonight
When the overcast tries to kill me
It's your slow motion rain
That falls warm on my neck that keep me alive

Brash and hopeful
That my luck won't perish tonight
And when the overcast tries to kill me
It's your slow motion rain
That falls warm on my neck that keep me alive

Brash and hopeful
That my luck will not perish tonight
And when the overcast tries to kill me
It's your slow motion rain
That falls warm on my neck that keep me alive

Consider this song a testament
Of my devotion to your sacharrine scent
And to be completely honest
You're not like all the rest
You're not like all the rest

Consider this song a testament
Of my devotion to your sacharrine scent
And to be completely honest
You're not like all the rest
You're not like all the rest

Oh no, you're not like all the rest
You're not like all the rest
You're not like all the rest
//spill canvas- "the night will go as follows"

Juanita always knows how to play that song to kill me inside. But in a good way. :)

Someone sing that to me one day. Haha,....but for real though. Sing it to me. :)

I don't know...there's still a lot in my head...but now I feel like I can say it all without attacking. I feel like I can say it without letting my anger take over. And that's what needs to happen. There needs to not be attacking. There has to be help, otherwise, what kind of person am I? You know what I mean?

No one gets me. Everyone says "You're weird" or some shit like that, and yeah, that's cool, I guess I don't care, but whatever. You know? Man, can't someone just get me? I'm fuckin thinkin in a foreign language here...no one gets it. That's my struggle I guess. Gotta learn to translate. Pick and choose which meanings are mine. Picking and choosing. Whatever that is, man.

I am exhausted. Goodnight world. Vanessa is not as angry with you tonight. And it feels like you don't hate her as much either. Thanks.