Naw Mean?

I'd like to give you something to laugh to...but I'm not sure I have it in me, man. Nothing really funny happened to me today...except Iwoke up. All laughs there, I gotta tell ya. Actually...no. Hah. But you can laugh if you want?

I am sitting here in my room, all chaotic and messy...still unpacked from the weekend...and I am leaving on Friday to go back to Frisco. Ohhhhh man. It feels like forever...I don't know what I'm going to do. Buncha nothing! hah. Like always. I suppose I should map it all out or so...things I must do, things I would like to do. Gotta get the life together and what not. Pick up the shit I made. Be a better person. Pick up the slack. All that good stuff. Because I'm tired of falling behind. I feel like I'm not showing people the best parts of me. I'm only showing them the laughs without the business. Or the happy and not the sad. So...being multifaceted, as all people are...I have decided that there is no holding back. All or nothing. That kind of thing. Because I'm sitting here. So bored. So fat. Hah. Nothing really to show for myself. Naw mean? Well...I guess that's the vent session I have for now. My mind keeps going back and sitting there...saying "You idiot." I can't help it. Ain't no joke when people say that you are your worst critic. Because sometimes when I am able to sit and reflect...in the mirror, I feel so angry and disappointed at the person staring back.

I'm tired in general, I guess. Gotta get a goodnight's sleep. Night I got back from Conference, I passed out. Man....I can't stress enough how much I love my sisters. Where have ya'll been all my friggin' life? Hah. Wish we knew each other earlier. But we know each other now...and that's what counts. I'm all for the future. Go future go. Let's do it.

IT'S ALL LOVE LOVE LOVE.

oh yes...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOEMI!

hahahahahahahahhahaha =P