I can't imagine why i'd feel so weak

Yesterday there was some family get togetherness, and all I wanted to do was visit my aunt. So I went to visit her and then all my cousins were there. Crazy. It's like...one of those nice surprises...I think I live for those. But that was nice. Tomorrow is Jig's birthday and he's comin, so I'm thinking I am going to bring that big boy to the park so we could play frisbee like we used to, hah. He's like...going to be 6 or something. Crazy kid. I remember when he was born, my cousin, his brother, was here. We were all going crazy. My cousin was getting angry because his dad wanted to name his baby brother Jonathan ROY...hahaha...and he was like "ROY?! Don't name my brother that! Nathaniel Isaac! It means long-awaited brother!" Little Bible-kid. But his name is Jonathan Isaac. My uncle had to call and ask how to spell Isaac, and he was like "Two A's?" haha. I don't know. Friggin' Laguna Beach. Shit. That damn graduation episode. GETS ME. Now I'm all kinds of nostalgic, and I'm sad because some of my friends I don't ever see anymore, names will not be mentioned, but I thought we were tight. You know? It astounds me how I could be so wrong about things that I'm so certain of at the moment. Like...I thought I was going to keep in touch with certain people, and turns out...everyone but them. But hey, that's how life works out, and what can you do? Accept it. Move on, all that good stuff.

Oh...and my parents decided that we're going to Midnight Mass this year. That's realllly interesting. I haven't gone to that in years. But again...I'm feeling like I want to go to church. Haven't done that in a while.

So...my New Year's Resolutions:
--Quit being a lazy ass mothereffer; do homework, go to class, actually STUDY.
--Quit wasting money on....not necessities. Well, quit wasting money so damn often.
--Quit being a lush.
--Quit being a ........
--Start being a better person. Because somehow this all got out of line, and I don't even know what I'm trying to do anymore.

Nothing really big. Just stuff. Like just putting things back together, and getting back on track. I've had my fun. Now it's time to get crackin.

You know, I'm pretty damn sure this is not really going to pan through...a lot of them are going to be broken, I know it, but if at the end of the year, I decide that I did better than expected or something, then...putting it down, deciding....all worth it.

And I'll be gone now.