bring the sunshine back again

Man its raining outside and that puts me in a foul mood. I hate winter for the sole fact that it makes the weather all ugly and muggy, and I hate that. It makes me sad. I think I established this though, like, last winter. I can't remember if "winter" is one of those words that need to be capitalized. But ah....

I'm trying to be a better person, and I'm trying to fix whatever I broke because it seems like I'm kind of broken. No, not depressed. Just a little wrong. You know what I mean? You probably don't. But okay... where did I go? I'm feeling like I'm due for a miracle, I'm waiting for a sign. Stare straight into the sun, and I won't close my eyes. I'm due for a miracle...waiting for a sign....and i'll stare straight into the sun, and I won't close my eyes.... (Thrice- Stare at the Sun)

Last weekend was grrrrreat. I mean, some quality times with ALPHA Q plus ONE. hahah, but yeah. I wish time was like that. I wish you know....we could just chill like that. What did we do... ate lots of tator tots. Got some kind of hyphy. or hiphey? Whatever. Rented "scary" movie. Hung out. Went to Haight. Munch munch munch. Kind of kills me how cool it was. Then Monday, Bryan and I went to Santa Cruz and did some hanging with our favorite Santa Cruzan. hah. Good stuff.

I am quite afraid of time. Why aren't we aware of how it passes? Of how short it feels...or how long it feels...but what it really is...we don't know! It freaks me out. A lot.

Maybe I should sleep. But....I don't know. I should. I ought to. But we'll see.

Goodnight.