Wind down.

It is May. I'm happy. At least its May. It doesn't necessarily have to be June, May is good enough. Ren Faire is on Friday and I'm not looking forward to it. Or at least, not right now. All I want to do is sleep, and sleep long. This weekend was about labor and walking a lot mostly, so I just want to stop right now. I fell asleep during Bishop's class today because I figured I could not even fake being awake, so I just put my head down and slept.

You know... I don't know what it is. I want to sit alone and listen to myself think. I haven't that in a while, usually because it leaves me depressed. But its like home. You know. Thinking. Alone. Alone in your head. Its like where no one can really disturb you. Sure they can tell you what to think and try to make you believe what they want you to believe, but in the end, you're the one who chooses whether or not to give in to them or not. When I think to myself, it feels like I'm figuring out all those years I might live all in one second, or an hour, or a day. And I know its probably like that in everyone's head, but have you ever taken the time to realize what you are doing? Figuring out how to live. Learning how to love what you have. I think I should take a nap because I'm going to start getting crazy and depressed if I don't get sleep. Have a good day. And can someone remind me to make my Ren Faire outfit?