I'm a bad influence

Well I started off the day, fighting with my parents. Haha. Its really quite funny if you really think about it. My dad was trying to wake me up, but I was only half awake, and I didn't want to go to 0 period so I started yelling. Hahaha. And then he left and my mom came in, and then I started yelling at her too. Hahaha. And then I called them "fuckin jerks," and said "fuck" and "fuckin' jerks" a lot. Hahaha. Man, I am a fuckin jerk sometimes.

Then when I came home, there were the AC guys here, working on the AC, and I just went to my room. My sister came home and she told me that she got in a fight with my dad too. Man. It must suck for him living with three women, and two teenaged ones at that. I wish I had a brother.

Oh yes, we're learning about the "Miracle of Life" in Physiology. It seems so cool and interesting. Maybe its the mother inside of me, but I really can't wait to have children. hahaha. Well, actually, I can. And I will. But yeah. WOW. Did you know WOW upside down is MOM? YUP!

Also, I've been listening to all my CDs and mixes. EVEN NAS. Yes, you read that right. Nas. The rapper. I have his CD Stillmatik because my cousin gave it to me for Christmas. Man, I really love all those songs. They kill me in a good way. And then I feel happy. However, I still feel depressed when I wake up after listening to Brand New while sleeping. Man, in every song I find a memory and a feeling. It makes me feel killer nostalgic, like beyond coming back to the present. But I do. And then I realize things are ending, and all of a sudden, part of me doesn't want it to, even if I need it to. Gosh. So weird!

I've been thinking about it. Man. I wish I could go to my cousin's middle school graduation. I really would like to, because I mean, he's like my little brother, basically. So yeah. But then that's when we have our Physio final. I wish I could just skip it. And I love my aunt. Today she came over and brought some strawberries, chicken, and a job application. Dude, she's like my other mother. Man. I love people.

I'm probably going to be surfing red waves sometime soon because I always get sentimental and nostalgic around that time. Plus. I want to have a baby? Whatthefuck. You know there's something wrong.