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2004 Senior Powderpuff game 1: win
2004 Senior Powderpuff game 2: WIN.

Today was really slow. Woke up and it seemed like the first three classes dragged on forever. Really. Humanities was really interesting in a boring way. We watched a movie about art. That's like two Art History classes in a row. Not that its a bad thing. Its a excess thing. Then the horrible Physio Exam. It sends a cold chill down my back everytime I think about it. Rather sad. I hope I did well, because I really did study this time. I studied hard. Saw the cheerleading thing at lunch. I was rather impressed by those "Sexy Sophomores" and I thought they really deserved the first spot. Not that we were all bad. Its just that they were somewhat better. They really made me believe the sexy part of their title. It was hot like a motherfucker. Then Powderpuff game. Honestly, I wasn't into it, so I don't want to take credit for this win. I was pretty uninvolved about 70% of the time. Its like I was next to all the stars though. Its weird, but its great. I have a big deal of respect for those people. They're really athletic and I wish I had that instinct, but my first instinct is to write or watch some crime drama on TV. That's me. Oh, and you punks really fucked up my cousin yesterday. She has scrapes on her face and she sprained her knee today. Man... I told you guys not to hurt my cousin! I think our family's full of shit and we'll talk you down like lawyers anytime. But when it comes to fighting, the boys take care of it. The ladies just stand by them and tell them what to say. Haha, that's what my grandma does. When my grandpa goes crazy, she just walks away laughing. I love her.

It got me really excited when I got my housing pamphlet for UCR today. I don't even want to go there, but just the prospect of living in a dorm....that doesn't have to have floral prints anywhere....oh man... I'm happy. But I'm also kind of nervous. The only roommates I've ever had were Mami who was from Japan and who was really nice, this one girl who I didn't ever see and was kind of cold, and my cousin who was a pretty good roommate, but I knew her so that's different. Now it'll be someone I don't know at all.... I'm really hoping to get into Davis or Cal. Really am.... or else it'll be SJSU.... or it might not even be a choice. Who knows.... I'm losing grasp on things now. I try to be a good person and I tell myself everyday and I'm aware of every wrong I do. I study and help out around here, and at night, I still feel like I'm not being well worth this space and air. I don't know what it is... I sort of wish I was really good at something so I could just do that all the time and not sit here and feel like I'm doing nothing. Even if I was really good at getting high or something. At least I wouldn't have to question myself being wrong, because I'd know I'd be wrong. But whatever...whatever whatever whatever.