Passion

I saw The Passion of the Christ today because the MC party was cancelled. It was really sad. Don't believe me when I start to make stupid jokes about it because that probably means I'm nervous. But it makes you really think. Are you a good person? Did this really happen? I want to be a good person. You hear that a lot from me, and I really mean it. I mean it everytime I say it. But then everything commonplace is just like this big comfortable pillow. You don't want to get a new one because you're so used to your big comfortable pillow. It just really made me think. There are a lot of people in this world who navigate through life blind. Honestly, I have been one of them. Lost and confused. I hate to say I found myself in a movie, especially a much publicized one, but I guess from this movie I gained this realization of all the things I should be and I should do. I ought to be and ought to do. And it makes me kind of sad to think that some people don't know that. They don't know what they ought to be or what they ought to do. Everything's been weird lately. I've definitely been so vain and selfish. Does it matter what college I go to? Why am I sitting here waiting for something to happen? If anything will happen, you have to take some part in making it. Anyway, that movie has just reassured me of the fact that there is a certain way to live and I'm not living it. I want to. I do. I'm sad now. New personal mission: be a better person. And I mean it this time.