Old world underground where are you now?

-Metric "IOU"

I just checked the Davis thingie again. Nothing. Its getting pretty nerve-racking. Now everyday I'll rush home and starve myself until I get notified.

Parents are pissing me off. Why did I even have to ask them if I could go to the concert. There is no possibility of growing up and gaining independence staying here. Its always going to be the same. Parents tell you what to do, what not to do, and treat you like you're ten. Well that's all well and good if you're actually ten years old. Otherwise, its just pathetic. I was angry, but now I just want to go away from here. There's no way in hell I'm going to SJSU now. I'd rather quickly die first. If I don't get into Davis or Cal, Irvine or Riverside it will be. Or SFSU, which is okay with me. I do hate living here and I'm so sick of this city and this high school. It makes me physically sick. Yeah, I know. Be grateful for what you got blah blah blah. It is impossible to be grateful for what you have when you know exactly what you don't have.

You know what....I say fuck it. Its great-looking outside and hot like a motherfucker. I'll go out and play some basketball later. I have nothing else to do but enjoy. Just as long as I get away from here in five months, I'm happy. And even if I can trick myself into believing so, even better. I need a drug dealer. Some days I just want to get stoned.