Down in the dumps

Things that happened today:
--Went to Powderpuff practice. This is now the fourth and final year I'll be doing this. I don't know if I want to though...I'm just a fat, lazy ass. I got winded after a few plays... I think I was the only one running for real though...so maybe that's it. Plus... where are the regulars? I miss my football buddies.
--Not only do I miss my football buddies, but I miss my MC buddies. Well, not really. JK
--Got into UCR. I'm just happy I got into somewhere other than SJSU, even if I'm not going there. It sucks... I can feel myself hating what's to come. Dude, all I can ask is WHY ME??? Of all people... maybe I deserve less than everyone... I don't know. I am so bummed out...but I keep trying to tell myself that its for the best. Its for the best. But let's face it... I'll never know what that is.

I guess I'm just taking out my frustration and resentment out on my blog for everyone to see... well, maybe just the three people who read my blog. But... who's gonna listen and talk back anyway...