Let me show you what i mean...

Hey. Tonight is College Night. I am not going. Why am I not going? Because...college depresses me. Just thinking about it. My own inadequacy. Not being able to live up to my own expectations. I'm probably gonna end up going to State or Community College or something. But the thing is, I'm starting not to care. I feel like whatever happens happens. All of those classes I took only because of what I thought they'd want to see of me...I regret it all. Man, thinking about college ruined my whole high school career. Because this time Junior year everything felt so close, but now that everything is even closer, I can't seem to find the importance of it. I don't know if I'm explaining it right. Let me try again...everything feels like nothing. All that I did seems like I did it for nothing because I didn't enjoy it. You know what I mean? Just time-fillers. I won't remember anything I've learned in these past three years, because it isn't important to me. So why should I consider something that makes me hate myself and feel like a dumbass important? Fuck college. If they don't accept me, fuck them, their loss. I'm not going to take anymore fuckin' classes that I don't want to take, do anything I don't want to do, and allow myself to feel stupid.

In other news, I totally am digging this sunny morning thing.