Is this what it takes/ To keep me alive?

- TrustCompany "Falling Apart"

Yeah. So that test. That test was fuckin' easy. Finished it in about ten minutes. Then of course, went back to check answers which took about five minutes. Then there was about five more minutes of pretending to be looking at my paper thinking really hard before I actually turned it in. And that pissed me off. Because I was studying like a madwoman last night. And because I was up, I slept at 1, which totally kills my sleeping pattern, because I usually hit the sack at 11. But yeah! Killed it. So I woke up today at 6:30 because my sister was lightly tapping my door, and I said, "I'm not going to 0." So I didn't. Missed 0...again. And I was nearly late to first period. Then I go to Art History and find that I could have passed that test blind-folded with my hands tied behind my back. So yeah. That's my frustration.

My other frustration is that yesterday I woke up to my alarm and the first thing I wondered was College. Its stressin' me out like a bitch. I can't take it, I'm putting it all off. Its not that I don't want to go to college--well, actually, maybe it is--its just that I don't want to deal with it. But I know that the sooner I deal with it, the more time I'll have to stress about whether or not I got in. So...I'll pretend I didn't just realize that. And instead I'll trick myself into believing that after I send in those applications I will be home free, and I'll get to miss as many days of 0 period as I like. Because it makes me feel bad now to miss it.

Man I'm sleepy. I have that Plato paper. Haven't even gotten a thesis yet...I'm fcuked.