Here I am. Pouring my heart onto these rooftops...just a ghost/to the world...that's exactly...exactly what I need.

Story of the Year- "Anthem of Our Dying Day"

What a day. It was a strange day. I went from having so much to do, to sitting here...waiting for Law & Order: SVU to come on. Heh. What do you call that? Irony? I don't know. But I'm going to switch subjects now.

College. For your information, I'm going to apply to four UCs and two CSU's, one of which is (of course) SJSU. Dun dun dun. I don' t know. I'm feeling like I'm not up to it. I'm not meant for this. I don't know...I wish I did...desperately.

Halloween ain't what it used to be. I like watching my dad open the door to those trick-or-treaters. He yells "trick or treat" louder than they do. Its funny. Its so weird...you know...I remember being that kid...looking forward to this every year...and then...coming home and eating the candy. Of course...not before having it checked and then trading with my cousins. I'm smiling right now...maybe you can't see me. But I am. But now...its just...I don't know...I guess I'm just sitting here. Maybe a little sad and a little disappointed, but its nothing I'll get over. But I'm not out there. And I'm not one of those kids and I don't anticipate this anymore. You must be sitting there thinking "duh" but I don't know, I never think about it. And now I am. And I'm even more sad.

Is this a trick...or a treat?