Yesterday I felt so old, I felt like I could die.

I guess you're really tired of my rants about this stupid babysitting job. But too fuckin bad, because I'm not tired of ranting. I hate my mom. Because its always her. She always sells me out and tells them to ask me to do stuff for them. Can you watch the kids? Can you write up my resume? Can you get the fuck away from me because I hate you. And I hate her stupid screw-up family. Every-fucking-one on that goddamn side is so stupid and dysfunctional. And it makes me think, these people aren't competent enough to take care of their own lives, what the fuck are they doing bringing other people into the world? I HATE THEM. I HATE MY MOM. I HATE EVERYONE. I HATE EVERYTHING. I can't wait to get the fuck away from here. And I don't care if I'm being selfish right now, because I always have to act selfless, and this is where I think its my prerogative to say, "fuck off." But of course I won't. So I'll just tell you all that that's what I want to say to them. I want to die. Can I die? Its the only way to get out of this.

Today while I was driving around King Rd. this lady fucking called me a "bitch," just because I let this guy go ahead of me to make a left turn since the flea market area is closed off for some reason. I swear if this would have been face to face, I'd have killed her. No fucking joke. I'd kill her. Because what the fuck, I had no choice but to let that dude go, or else he would have fuckin driven into a police car, so what the fuck, that stupid bitch. I'd kill her. I'd fucking beat her to death. Because I'm not a happy camper right now and she's so fuckin blind and stupid and I won't hesitate to say that I'm better than that bitch. So fuck her.