Pound it in

I've had this headache since yesterday. It sucks ass, dude. I did some mad napping today. Like every spare minute I had. Well, time is winding down. Its almost the middle of July now. Then will be August, and next thing you know, its Autumn. And you know what that means, folks. School. As of now, I can't wait. Oh yeah, except for a few things...what is it? Homework, Humanities, Senior Prom, College Apps. Those can take their time coming, because I just ain't ready. You know. I think I'm gonna just do the Junior College thing, because its easier on my parents, and I guess that's what I should care about, right? But then there's this nagging feeling, a selfish feeling, that I need to get away and this is what I've looked forward to for the last six years. I don't know. Like I said before. I'm completely lost. Completely. I don't know what to do anymore. I mean, I know what I want, but I don't know what I can have.

Tonight, since my mom is still on her Martha Stewart mission, I helped her redo some stuff. Like curtains and kitchen chairs. She gets up early, because she says she can't sleep; she's too excited thinking about it. That's my mom. And then when my dad comes home, its kinda like a look of amusement, but then he's kinda pissed because she spent money again. Hahaha, its hecka funny, he would just walk out of a room shaking his head. And my sister helped too. Haha, nothing really much else to say. Is it pitiful to talk about my family. I don't talk about them much, except for my dad, but whenever I do, I can't help but think I give a negative impression of him. He's not that bad. I mean, he takes care of us, he cares if we do our best, even if sometimes he doesn't think it is. And sometimes I feel like he hates me, but I think I know he doesn't. I know my mom loves both my sister and me because she tells us everyday before she leaves for work. But I don't really say it back. But I love my parents. Sometimes they are asses, but you know...whatever, I know I'm a perpetual ass, so I'm just glad that they can deal with me. That's it. That's all I have today.