reason for the brain fart is because i just checked my SAT scores and even if admissions do take the best of both times i took the test, i can't get into a UC. fuckin great. it always feels like luck is out to fuck me in the ass. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I FUCKIN HATE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW. I CAN'T FUCKIN LISTEN TO MY MOM WITHOUT WANTING TO FUCKIN HIT HER IN THE FACE...AND MY DAD....HE'S BEING A LITTLE BITCH. I hate this. Dude, I don't want to go to State....I'll fuckin cry...what's the use...might as well just do it like my one-and-only older cousin did...live at home...become a nurse. what a fool. i'd die if i ever became a nurse...its so...complacent...i think is the word...i don't know...listen to that one liveonrelease song. i forgot what it was fuckin called. ahh whatever, i'm gonna go to my room and sob myself to sleep.