Here's the fuckin' deal

....see when I am left alone...I mean alone....like any type of alone...whether in the bathroom or sitting aside silently...when I am alone, I think. I'm big on thinking. And whenever I think, I get depressed. Because that gives me the opportunity to just rag on myself and scrutinize my failures as a person. And yesterday there was some big time thinking. You know how this came along? SAT scores. Yeah. I'm not gonna tell you what I got, but lemme just say that I can't get anywhere I want to go. That, and this summer is a bummer. Stuck at home. I guess I should just let everything go now. Because I just don't see the point. I have to reevaluate my plan completely now. I have no idea where I'm at. Lost. Totally lost. And its hard to put myself back together.