Days like these...

days like these make me think, first thing i get up in the morning, go to Commons for breakfast. And I can feel the walk so vividly, as if I am walking it right there. And I know the Summer air. And I feel the morning breeze. And then I realize I am just going to school. Regular school. Ain't-nothing-special-school. And I don't know. Because I have no idea why this is. Its funny the things you miss.

Blogger is down or something so I have to email this to myself.

I just realized what was wrong with this year. Junior year. It was just my attitude. I came in with this fucked up attitude. And I know this because one day after I got back I got in a fight with my parents and my dad said, "Is this what you do? You go away and come back and act like this? Next time we won't let you go away..." Actually he screamed that. And its true. I came back feeling better than everybody. But you'd think, I took Ethics, and I should know...superiority is a thing of the mind, a foolish one at that. Because I'm no better than anyone. So I came back thinking that I was destined for a big life because I went to that one thing. But I can barely keep up with stuff.

Turner isn't so bad. A little confusing as a teacher, yeah, but not a bad person. I like Mrs. Turner. I mean, in the beginning of the year, I couldn't understand it; all the yelling and stuff, but yeah, I guess she just really believes in the importance of her area of study, which is respectable. And I can't help but feel that I wronged her in some way for hating her and telling people shit about her because she has good intentions, and all you gotta do is pay attention and do your work.

Mateer, on the other hand, is arrogant. Especially when it comes to Grammar. Who gets arrogant about commas? One person. Mateer. And I don't find that respectable. Because we're supposed to be taught, right? Not humiliated into learning.

Catollico is just a really good teacher. Even if the stuff he gives us isn't AP material, its enough to make us think. He doesn't just give us dates and events, he gives us thought-provoking questions that challenge our moral understanding. And that is one thing I really do appreciate. Because we see the monstrosity of humankind. And we realize the wrongs. And dates don't matter that much, just as long as they don't fall in the realm of our responsibility. Because I truly believe he is teaching us to be better people.

Gonzo. What can I say about Gonzo? Does he really care for his students? I can't say that I think he genuinely does. He's distant and impersonal. I mean, he's cold. Yeah. To put it simply. It just seems childish the kind of stuff he says to us.

Sanders is probably the best math teacher I'll ever have. And that's as far as it goes. I seriously sit in front of her in class and I swear I have to look away everytime she tells a joke or else she turns to me expecting a response. I just can't handle that.

17 days. 17 days more. Come on....