Maybe I can fly

not from any song. Just from m e.

We went to Calculus review today. Hah. Gee whiz, I felt like such a dumbass. A hella fat dumbass, because I couldn't answer anything, and I pray to God that I did not waste $160 of my parents' money for nothing. I hate wasting their money. Makes me feel like a freeloader.

Things I hate like feeling:
--fat/bloated/full/stubby
--short, but I am...so this one is like...all the time.
--stupid
--a freeloader
--I hate the feeling I get when I get my period. That just makes me feel dirty.
--rejected/like a failure

Anyway, just a random list in the middle of today's blog. Sometimes its like Tuesdays are as bad as Mondays. I mean, yesterday I was pretty awake the whole day, but today I was desperate for naps. I am a nap person. I'd kick someone's ass if he tried to wake me up from a nap.

Things I love:
--naps.
--sleep.
--summer.
--driving with my music on when no one is around.
--"October Nights" by Yellowcard, "Vampires" and "Cubicles" by My Chemical Romance, "Indoor Living" and "The Future Freaks Me Out" by Motion City Soundtrack, "Jodie" by Saves the Day, "Tired of Sex" by Weezer, "Pardon Me" by Incubus, "I Woke Up In A Car" by Something Corporate, "Threesome" and "Tearjerker" by FenixTx, "Last Days of the Suicide Kid" by Kissing Chaos, "I Want To Hear You Sad" and "Ashaka Rock" by The Early November. IM me if you want more. I gots more.
--Vince Carter.
--dreaming about what the future would be like.

Another random list. Today I got this random request to lend my car to someone. My parents would never allow it, so they said I could just come with them. Heh. Not that I wouldn't want to go. But that's kinda strange. I'm a picky person, aren't I? If you've noticed by now. I am. I'm dumb too. I think I kinda like Something Corporate now. Last night it was so friggin hard for me to go to sleep. Weezer was playing. But I couldn't hear. I think I have an ear infection. I have to go to the doctor. On Thursday. I think. The week is almost over. And we get to get out early on Friday. Woohoo. And on Wednesday. Woohoo, except I have to take the practice SAT tomorrow. I think I'll bullshit it. Hahaha. I already know my weaknesses. ARgh. I am soooo frustrated. And I think I am too crude in this blog.