Hot Rod Circuit

Got a Hot Rod Circuit shirt today from Hot Topic. So rad. But its so big. Might have to cut it. I also saw What A Girl Wants with my cousin and sister. Its a pretty okay movie I thought. Sort of sappy. Finally told parents what I thought about the restrictions they lay upon me; they ignored me. Woke up at 2 o'clock in the afternoon. Couldn't get to sleep until 4 o'clock in the morning. I tried to sleep to Off By One, but I kept singing along to the music. Its cold. I took a cold shower today. It wasn't intentional, there just wasn't anymore hot water. I had a weird dream about somebody who will remain nameless. That same somebody I think I am tired about thinking about, no matter how rarely I think about anymore. And since I don't want this blog to be all about how "blah I'm so lonely. Today I saw a couple and blah blah blah" because that's just weak in my eyes. People shouldn't put all their hopes and dreams in another person at this age. You can't expect that you will actually end up with that person. So yeah, now you've seen "love" through my jaded eyes. Though "jaded" means these eyes have seen "love" quite often, but no. No, never. So jaded may mean I'm tired. My eyes are tired of seeing hope. Hope is lost. That reminds me. I saw a Hopesfall CD too yesterday. Wish I had bought it. So this is just a big blog of what I did today. What I kinda felt. Tomorrow is Easter. Family party. Egg hunting. Little kids first. Big kids last. I need money. I'm tired of thinking about what college I'm going to apply to. About AP tests. About the SATs. I'm tired of it. For all of the kids who still have time, work your ass off. Work your ass off so you won't notice the time pass by you. So you can escape from the place you call "home" as soon as you get the diploma. Then you have the right to never come home. Then you can disappear into the throngs of people. Work your ass off. That's all I have to say.