I'm just a little chickenshit..

I haven't written in a while. Here's my weekend:
Saturday: my sister's birthday party. Parties aren't what they used to be. People are getting older. Family is drifting further apart. I used to see all of my cousins at these parties, but now I barely see any of them. It kind of makes me sad. So all I did was watch tv; mainly the monster fest on AMC.

Sunday: I scared the shit out of myself and went and saw The Ring. It's an awesome movie. It really made me think, and I'm still scared shitless. Its hard to fall asleep for me now. I could barely face the friggin computer screen. I'm such a baby.

Monday: I was still afraid. I didn't do much. I went to college fair. That was great. The one at Andover was better though, but here, it was more realistic. I know I won't go to Bucknell in Pennsylvania or Yale in Connecticut. Might as well sit my ass down here in California. I wanna go to SFSU or UCR. I have no idea how I'll manage next year though.

So most of the weekend I was scared. I could barely get to sleep last night. I'm such a chickenshit.